Its been a while...

Today is Mother's Day 2014. I haven't written a post for a year and a half, but today I just felt the urge to write. A lot has happened in the last year and a half. My kids are older, my occupation has changed and I am one semester away from a Masters degree. I have had the opportunity to stay home with my children this year. Don't get me wrong, there have been some tough days, but overall it was the best decision of my life. My kids amaze me every day. They are hilarious, sweet, caring, crazy, agreeable yet stubborn, best friends but sometimes enemies, creative and happy. I was chosen to be their mom. God created them and sent them to me to take care of, teach them right from wrong and love them.

Today on Mother's Day, I am humbled to think about these amazing gifts God has given me. Sometimes I think that I'm not doing my best or that I could be a better mom. I ask God frequently to give me patience and grant me understanding. I ask Him to help me be the mom my kids need me to be. I get down on myself because I yelled or didn't handle a situation they way I should have. Some days get long and they seem like they will never end. However, today when looked into my children's eyes, I saw Jesus. My daughter reached her hands up to me during church with a big smile on her face and I saw Jesus. He is there with them every second of every day. I see the sparkle in their eyes when they smile at me. I see the genuine happiness on my daughter's face when I come in her room after she wakes from sleep. I feel their love in the extra second of their hugs. I see the relief in my son's eyes when I put a band-aid on his finger.

Those small moments in time fill my heart with love. I am so grateful that God has trusted me with these magnificent children. Some days, it is hard to see Jesus. It is my goal from now on, to find Him everyday. I know He is there in my children. I want people to look at me and see Jesus. I want that sparkle in my eye and happiness on my face. I want to live in the moment and not be so concerned about the future. Those are my goals this Mother's Day.

Erin